un………motivated

I don’t know what it is but I am so….SO unmotivated lately.  Like, no drive to do anything at all.  I don’t even feel like emailing my friends or watching tv.  It’s bizzare.

I am totally uninspired by my job and not really getting much done at work these days.

I am not motivated to learn anything about my new town and once again find it totally uninspiring.

It’s even hard to get myself excited about doing yoga or going swimming which are usually things I Love.

It’s bad enough that I have been googleing “prenatal depression”.  I’m not sad or angry by any means I just feel nothing.

I’ve gone through periods of life before where I have been unenthusiastic about my job or my home but that usually motivates me to make a change.  Usually when I get like this I start some crazy plan to move or change carreers or go back to school or start a business.  But I never want to do nothing.  I am even finding it really hard to blog because I feel so boring right now.

I hope it is because I am so exhausted and  don’t have the energy for anything new right now.  I really hope it goes away in trimester 2 and doesn’t lurk around as my new foggy existence.

Anybody know anything or have any experiences with this.   I’m crawling out of my skin with boredom and yet I loathe the idea of doing anything.

In the good news department.  I called my doctor’s office and scheduled an NT ultrasound for Dec 10th.  We won’t necessarily need it since I did the MaterniT21 test, but I couldn’t turn down an opportunity for Cloudy and I to see our growing bebe.  It turns out that the best thing to do is just call and schedule whatever you want and not consult a Dr or nurse about it first.  We’ll see how that flies with the insurance…..   I spoke to a live human first ring and she seemed competent and helpful!  I was shocked.

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11 thoughts on “un………motivated

  1. Hmmm… No experience beyond a week of pregnancy to help enlighten you – but I’m gonna go with hormones/time of year combo. Even on progesterone I either felt amped up and totally interesting, or like I wanted to do my best to blend in with the furniture.

  2. I was totally lethargic my entire first trimester (and a ways into the 2nd actually). Part of it was from being so sick, but a large part was also just being so exhausted I think. Enjoy it. My Mom made a good point of you CAN’T allow yourself to be lethargic and lay around on the couch once the baby comes, so just go with it and let your body relax for now – it’s obviously what you need!

  3. I’d blame the exhaustion. I’m in the same boat. I have almost no interest in doing anything – even just laying like a lump on the couch to watch TV – because I’m so freaking tired. It’s hard to adjust to, I know, especially when you’re used to being active and engaged in life, but I hear that it gets better in the second trimester. Hang in there!

  4. Don’t be too hard on yourself right now. Do whatever you want even if it’s nothing at all. You and I have appointments the same day. It can only mean that we’re both going to have fabulous news to share. I hope you got the competent nurse’s name!

  5. Sorry you are feeling so, blah 😦 I agree with the above. Give yourself a break. Have some compassion for your “blah” self, you are creating a human being inside of you, I mean, this week you probably created another kidney or something. That’s amazing.
    During my first trimester, I definitely was A LOT more antisocial than normal. I realized I hadn’t even talked to certain friends for like 6 weeks. I also spent a lot of time at work with my office door closed. I told my coworkers it wasn’t personal, I just couldn’t handle talking to people. But now I’m past that. And I think you’ll get past this too. Just do whatever you need to do to get by!

  6. I feel very much the same way. I have no motivation to do anything, even “easy” things like reading or watching a movie. Often I just lie on the coach or the bed and stare into space. I hope it gets better soon because I’m really boring myself.

  7. First of all, I am so glad that you have an NT scheduled for a few weeks out! If anything, it will be nice to see your little one. Are you going to find out the sex with the MaterniT21 test or wait and and be surprised?

    Secondly, I think the boredom and lack of enthusiasm is totally normal. The first few months of pregnancy are so difficult and it is tough to get your hopes up to start actually planning for the baby. I am still having trouble doing it. Hopefully in the next few weeks you’ll gain some more confidence about things and I think that will help. Hang in there my friend!! In the meantime, relax and enjoy your downtime as much as you can. Do some nice things for yourself, you deserve them! 🙂

  8. Oh no! I hope your fugue naturally dissipates in the next few months! I’m with everyone else, I hope you can allow yourself to do “nothing” in the interim.

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