So I made it to today. The day I finally get to go to the nurse and the doctor. I’ve been ok, still calm even.
This morning I had to pee again, which is my new favorite thing to do these days. When I did, I noticed a very small bit of brown spotting on the toilet paper. Naturally worry set in immediately. I am trying to stay calm and I am trying not to Google. I am so glad I am going in to the doctor today. I really hope I have a good connection with them since there isn’t much option in town. And I hope they are willing to test my beta, progesterone, and iron.
The spotting does have me worried but I am trying to remind myself that this happened at the same time last time. It was very little and only lasted for 2 days. I’m trying to tell myself that as long as I am not cramping and it isn’t red I should be ok. I am also repeating the following affirmations over and over to myself this morning.
I trust my body and believe in my baby
My body knows how to keep this pregnancy safe
Whatever happens is for the best and higher good
For now it’s working. I hope I can make it to my appointment at 11:15 without going into full on panic mode.