Alternatively I could have titled this post: Knowledge is power, or is it?
So my boobs do feel a little bit sore and have actually for a couple of days. I mention this because it either means that I am pregnant or that my period is coming, Well thanks boobs, I already knew that!!! So which is it? I also think they are possibly sore because I have made them out to be that way in my mind. Have I been expecting this side effect with so much fervor that it is actually only my mind creating this lovely symptom for me? Or in other words: the 2 week crazies have a hold of me again.
The other thing that I am doing that I shouldn’t be doing, is tediously comparing this cycle to the last cycle that did produce a pregnancy. I know that every cycle is it’s own unique unfolding and that every pregnancy is different. In fact, I want my next pregnancy to be different enough from the last one that I get an entirely different outcome. But I am still comparing and it is messing with my mind. For instance my boobs usually don’t get sore before my period. The only two times in my life that I experienced this were the cycle I got pregnant, and the cycle right before that when I didn’t. Ahhh, do you see how maddening this is?
The other thing I keep comparing is my BBT to the one from the month I got pregnant. And of course they are a little bit different. In that one I had what looks like a second increase in temps after implantation and that started 11dpo which will be tomorrow and I know if I don’t see a higher temp tomorrow I am going to be worried. Knowledge can in fact be down right shitty.
So I’m crazy today, and in the time that I have written this post I have gotten kind of sad and weepy. Oooh emotional, maybe that is a sign that I am either pregnant or about to start my period! Fabulous…..