Well today is cycle day 20 and still no upswing in my temperature that would indicate any kind of action from my ovaries. That means I am looking at a 35 day cycle minimum which is still better than the 5 month cycle I started this game with but I’m frustrated anyway. When I make an effort to do everything I can, take all my supplements, drink tons of water, get poked with needles weekly, listen to my circle and bloom visualizations, castor oil packs every night; I like to see a textbook BBT. When I do, it is all worth it and it gives me the motivation to continue on with all of this stuff. When I don’t, and my temps are all over the place or just stay low for 20 days, I start to get lazy. I guess what I am saying is that I have no patience for things not working right now. I am willing to do the work for results but if I am even one week off, I loose steam and start downward spiraling into no progress land. I resent every handful of pills I swallow, thinking whats the point? I start to wonder if I am spending too much on acupuncture for nothing. It just needs to work.
The same is true for my weight. I have not adopted an official plan this time around but I am expecting results anyway. I have started to go back to the gym for the Mon Wed Fri strength endurance training class that kicks my butt, and I bought a pass so that I can swim laps at the local hot springs pool on Tues and Thurs. I am still teaching 3 yoga classes a week and I also signed up for a 5 week workshop where I go for 2 hours every Sunday for 5 weeks to study the ashtanga primary series. My first class was last Sunday and I was so sore up until today really but I am learning so much, it is nice to take a class for me again. I have gotten so into my teaching that my own practice has fallen by the wayside. And I am also starting to really get into mountain biking. I live in a town where you are only cool if you bike so I decided I better try and learn. I have found a lovely group of beginner ladies and we have started riding on wednesday nights. I can already tell that I am getting stronger, last night we rode for 2.5 hours all over the freaking hills and even though I was beat when I got done I felt great. Cloudy has been taking me on Monday nights too and he is surprisingly patient with me as I learn something that comes very easily and naturally to him as he has been riding for about 22 years. Anyway, all that to say that I am getting lots of physical activity in. I am watching what I eat and trying to plan healthy meals out ahead of time but I have not brought myself to follow any specific diet or count calories again. I feel great and am enjoying being so active but I know if I keep this up for very long and stay at my 144lb mark I will slowly start to get very frustrated and thus lazy.
I want reliable magic results.